June Check In

Things are good! Things are bad! The decks cannot be cleared!

Hi! It’s suddenly June and things with me are mostly feeling a lot better with a smattering of “oh no” and “what the actual fuck.” First the good stuff:

I was invited to a real, in-person book club in which 14 women gathered to drink wine and talk about The Correspondent. I was looking forward to this even though I didn’t know most of these women, but when I tell you how great it was! It was so great! They weren’t all my people but a lot of them definitely could be. It was such a fun evening, and I laid the groundwork for some new friendships which is always nice.

There’s another one in a few weeks that I hope I’ll be invited to even though I don’t want to read the book. (Theo of Golden. Thoughts?) It’s a weird situation, though, because I was invited separately, after the original group text was sent out and I’ve still not been added to the group text, even though I specifically asked to be. Twice. So… I don’t have the details for the next book club and I’m not sure if I’m actually invited. Social anxiety! It never ends.

I did, after posting my recent whine about not riding my bike, make myself go ride my bike. (See above.) It was good! I went to a new-to-me trail and rode for an hour and saw some geese, terrorized some squirrels, and had a nice time. Sometimes I just need to bully myself a little bit and do the thing. I was going to try to do it again this week but instead I’m dealing with a really painful shoulder/back muscle situation (caused by nothing?) that requires a lot of heating pad action. Boo.

The other positive thing is that I’ve had a few job interviews. One of them was a horrifying one-way video screener for a remote position in which I had to answer five questions while staring at myself in the camera. This was so much more terrible than talking to someone via Zoom because I kept forgetting to look at the camera and had to do many, many takes. It was the terriblest. I did not move onto the next round which surprised me not even a little bit.

The other interview was for a nearby college. I had a great first interview via Zoom and was invited for an in-person group interview, my first in-person interview in seven years. Eep.